It's my party...and I'll cry if I want to.

So, first disclaimer, I'm doing this on an iPad, so typing is bit odd...please pardon any typos. And now...I must ask the party favors and pointy hats marching around my bed to kindly leave. I am NOT going to fall into a pity party. It is hard not to, but I also need to keep this recovery in perspective. It has been only 40 days since the surgery, not a huge amount of time, so I know things will get better. This past week has still been a week full of nausea, and high sensitivity to odors. I was driving the other day like a springer spaniel hanging my head out the window because the odor in my car was making me sick. I was feeling like a hurl and laughing at the same time. Ron and did didnt find to much humor in it given that I almost side swipped a tree. Ooopsie. My nausea appears to not be coming from a defective gall bladder ( a nuclear HIDA scan on thur helped figure that out ..test involved me having to drink a cup of cream! To see if it made me immediately nauseous ...or just nauseous once the contents exited the gall bladder, mine was the latter). Good news for the gall bladder, bad news (again poor Ron ) for the person down wind 20min later. Oooopsie. With the test results not shown an issue with mr. G.Badder, dr. Moved me back to a full mushy/liquid diet again for a week, and re-start on solids and see how it goes. I did manage to get 1/2 of a banana peanut butter shake down this morning and it didnt repulse me two swigs in, soooooo I guess that is progress. Speaking of progress -- exercised this week 4 days out of 7. Started the week at 239. Now at 235, so four more pounds. The big obstacle still seems to be the nausea, and now it's compounding effect of making me apprehensive to leave the domicile for long periods of time, because that means...da da da, I may have to put some nutrients in the pie hole and that generally now sets off a nausea fit. So, a good goal for me this week is to find a travel protein source that is mushy and high in protein. aNY suggestions folks? Has to be under 5grams of sugar and easily transported. Ok friends that's an update. I truly appreciate everyones kind support. It really does help.

Month one. Check.

So...my last blog post was in November of 2010. So...obviously, not a real committed person to the art of blogging. But, today as I sat (yes SAT) in the shower and pondered my new altered self, it occurred to me that I need to change that part of me who stalls out on things. I need to change primarily the part of my life that has to do with physical exertion...EXERCISE! This new altered me is losing weight (20 lbs in my 1st month. Yea!). But, weight loss alone will not get me to the health I need. My heart, lungs, bones, they all need there own TLC. And...it is my job to do that. This 1st month since bariatric surgery has been WAY harder than I had ever imagined. And, I guess that's ok, cause if I had known...I bet I would have chickened out. But since ignorance in my case is an altered stomach, then I say what the heck...I'm all in.

My strategy for month two is to not worry so much about the variety of food I can no longer tolerate or stomach, and instead throw that attention towards...da da dahhhhh. Exercise.

Why blog about this? Heck I don't know, it just feels good to get some of this fear and worry out of my ever pondering brain and onto ...errr a screen. It feels ok to share some of this challenge, most of it is still inside. But...maybe as the pounds come off, more of gunk that is inside will come out as well? Who knows.

Month one recap:
Surgery on 12/5. Released. 12/7. Really able to start moving around on 12/12
started at 259 lbs (ok, that # is sooo hard to share, but I did it. ), lost 20 lbs and started today month 2 at 239.
Nausea is the most challenging obstacle. It's constant
I've walked 7 times this past month, 1.2 miles each time.